【降魔的感受】
你享受著漢堡的美味,當然不能體會捱餓的滋味!
牠享受著主人的疼錫,當然不能體會流浪的坎坷!
你享受著富裕的生活,當然不能體會貧困的折磨!
她享受著萬千的寵愛,當然不能體會喪親的悲哀!
最近,小咪的情緒和身體狀況出現問題,我想或多或少和我有點關係!
其實,不只是牠,我也正和牠一起經歷著相同的境況和痛楚!
無人明瞭的孤單、痛失依靠的落寞、家早破碎不成家、親人冰冷和陌生、遍地荒涼的感覺!
為了不讓肥媽傷心和失望,最近我盡力逼自己再和姊姊修補關係!
我真的很佩服肥媽的大方和能耐,即使姊姊對她多差仍那麼愛她!
但原來我永遠學不到肥媽的寬宏和偉大,很多時把怨恨藏在心裡!
結果,就成小咪一樣,越來越沉默、越來越沉鬱;眼淚常在心裡流,有時卻在眼眶裡打轉!
幾經艱辛,今早終約了師傅來驗窗!
為了這項工程,我差點和姊姊脫離關係(雖然我倆關係向來也不好)!
師傅走後,她一些冷言冷語,令我受屈指數再度提升!
我逼自己看著電腦,按下Air Supply的Without You.....
我跟著歌詞一起唱,眼淚卻快湧出來!
每一句歌詞,都讓我想起肥媽!
No I can't forget this evening or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
我竭力逼自己把淚收回,不想讓姊姊發現我的痛苦!
我擁著小咪吻了牠兩下,告訴牠我稍後再回來看牠!
我買了三束花給肥媽,向她傾訴內心的鬱結和說話!
我打開Facebook, 方發現去年今天,我在堡壘依偎著媽!
假如每個人最終都會往目的地,能讓我抱著小咪,盡快登上馬季那部的士嗎?
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