2018 is a milestone year. We moved into a new place as married couple, hubby changed job and I am pregnant with our first child. Tbh I am still coping with the idea of being a wifey and mama-to-be. Marriage and kids are 2 things that never really crossed my mind growing up. It just felt irrelevant. That is until my man appeared. We'd planned to enjoy some alone time and maybe try for a child in 2019. But a body check in mid '18 revealed some complications in my uterus. After some discussion, we decided to try for a few months, and if nth happend (which is very likely per doc) then I will get a surgery and try 2yrs later. Aaaaand then it just happened. One try and now I am 30 weeks pregged. As shocked as I was, I told myself its meant to be.
I really wanna say I love this pregnancy and is excited for what's to come, but the truth is...there's lots more than rainbows, unicorns and a loving hubby. Crazy hormones gets me crying for the lamest things. I started walking like a penguin lately. I am bloated all around, and got zebra lines across my butt and darkened pigmentations all over the weirdest spots. I freak out thinking about being cut open and how painful the healing will be. Will I get time to go workout with my guavapass or grab drinks w friends after baby comes out? Can't even imagine how different life will be. And the whole concept of being responsible for someone other than yourself 😨 A thousand things crosses my mind and all are in the land of strange and unknown. But on the positive side, being 30 weeks pregged means I am almost done, meaning I can finally eat sushi or sleep on my back again after the baby's out. People say all worries will be gone ones u see the baby's face. I sure hope so. Keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed.
I am interested to see how things will turn out in 2019, how I can balance having a life vs motherhood.
Let's all keep our heads up, hopes high and take on the new year with many many positive energies!
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