關於 way out on a limb ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

整理資料發現近兩年前去某國際研討會分享 #手天使 心得時的講稿，當時把我知道的議題面向都寫進去了。貼上來給有興趣的朋友。

[[slide page 1]]
Thank you for attending this part.
I'm from Hand Angel, a non-profit organization of Taiwan.

The title of my presentation is "As a sex worker and a sex volunteer",
since I'm both a sex worker, and also attending Hand Angel as a sex volunteer.

[[slide page 2]]
Allow me to introduce my organization more,
though you may know some from what Vincent has said in the morning.

Our main tenet is sexual rights to people with disabilities.

[[slide page 3]]
This includes not only orgasm, but also the right to control one's sexuality with autonomy and without discrimination.
People know us usually because we provide limited sexual service for servere physical or visual disabilities, including females.

Hand Angel is not a registered organization in Taiwan,
since we literally provide sexual service, which is considered against public order and morals.

However, we are still able to initiative our idea on the table
because our service are free, which means we actually do not violate any law.

[[slide page 4]]
In Taiwan, the definition of "sexual transaction" includes obscene acts in exchange for monetary,
which means it's considered transactional sex even there is no sexual intercourse.
And since transactional sex is technically illegal in Taiwan,
there's no legal way for us to charge anything by providing any service which may be considered obscenity.

This is much different in other countries.
In Japan, the law prohibiting sexual transaction only applies to intercourse between one male and one female. That's why White Hands and NOIR are able to provide paid handjob. The other reason is that they seem do not locate their service as sexual transaction. We can talk about this difference later.
And in Hong Kong, there's some way for sex workers not to be punished, which is called "one-woman brothel". So the difficulty for people with disabilities to satisfy their sexual desire would be different.

I, who has been a sex worker for years -- under the table, of course -- was invited to join Hand Angel at its very beginning.
[[slide page 5]]
People keep asking me that how a sex worker would think about a free sexual service.
But before that question, I think it's more important for us to know the difference other than money.
What's the difference between a classical transactional sex and our service?

As a sex worker, I hope my customers will come back to me more and more, as many times as they can pay.
But as a member of Hand Angel, I hope the servees would not need us anymore.
In fact, I hope they don't have to come to us at the very beginning.

The reason why people with disabilities may need sexual service, is the absence of sexual resource, the resource to fulfill one's sexual desire.

This is just like other issues of disabilities.
[[slide page 6]]
Just providing a service would not resolve the structural problem.

For example, if you give food to the poor without changing their situation, you would end up finding out that they're still poor.
Now change the "food" to "sex".
If we just give our own sex to those who barely have sexual resource, we'll end up exploiting ourselves, and their bad situation still remains.

The problem is, disabled people are considered abnormal, and they have been treated as no unnecessary needs.
But what is necessary for a person to live her own life instead of just survive?
In our issue, disabled people are usually considered asexual, and seldom sexy. That's the stigma we're going to break down.

[[slide page 7]]
There are some textures talking about disabled people in love and having sex, such as "Scarlet Road", "Sex on Wheels", and "The Sessions".
However, the narrative are usually based on ableism.
Viewers usually focus on how can the service provider "bear" to have sex with disabled people, instead of seeing the obstacles disabled people encounter.

[[slide page 8]]
A feminist has said that the relationship a disabled person has is considered depending on the compassion of the other person. People think their sexuality is disgusting and only saints are able to tolerate it.

So we can see the problem is not only physical obstacles, but also how we think about intimate relationship a disabled person deserves.

[[slide page 9]]
Does Hand Angel care about intimate issue? The answer is yes.
In our service, we provide not only sexual service. Our target is not the physical orgasm, but the infinite opportunity of their own lives.
Here are two examples.

[[slide page 10]] Little Prince
Since this servee can sense nothing below his waist, a classical handjob would be meaningless.
Fortunately, we have a BDSM queen in our team.
She thought of techniques in SM to check how pain it is to the slave, and use the same trick to check how the servee's body can feel.
I have to emphasize: that was not a medical treatment, that was about communication with each other.
They were talking about the feeling of two people, instead of the body of one person.
The whole process relies on the intimacy between the sex volunteer and the servee.

[[slide page 11]] ND
"Strolling" for him was from his room to the front door of his home.
Uh, I'm not talking about he lives in a big house.
Though using an electric wheelchair, ND's finger was not powerful enough to control the device for more than 10 minutes,
which means going out alone is not possible for him.
But after applying for our service, he trained himself to "walk" longer.
Even after our service, we were told that he kept trying to leave home and meet other friends.

Another servee has tried other entertainment such as snorkeling and paragliding after our service.
He's having a more plentiful life than before, and even than me.

[[slide page 12]]
In these cases, we can see that:
First, physical orgasm is not the only purpose of a sexual service.
Secondly, libido, or desire for sexual activity, is a strong energy for people to live.

There's a continuing question for us: People can still live without sex.
[[slide page 13]]
What's so important for disabled people to have sex?
Well, I think sex is probably not important for those who can have sex easily, but the impossibility to sex or intimacy may deny the self-esteem of a person.
Sex is an important reason for most people to make friends. So on the other hand, once a person is forced to abandon the opportunity to have sex, she (or he) might lose the energy to social activities. And that's not good for mental health.

[[slide page 14]] The 3 aspects we care about
First, physical orgasm. This is not only about sex organ, but also those come from your erogenous zone.
The problem is not only that people don't know how to interact with disabled people during sex,
but also that people do not want to know how the sex would be for people with different disabilities.

Second, intimacy. The right to have a satisfying date is also important.
Let's imagine, what if a couple of lovers want to kiss each other while seeing movie in a theater, but one of them is in wheelchair so their positions are actually separated?

Third, social integration. Many people with disabilities don't have enough opportunity to make close friends. One of the reasons is that other people usually don't know how to react with disabled people. Therefore, education is important.

[[slide page 15]] Gender Equity Education
In Taiwan, gender equity education comprises 3 parts: affective education, sex education, and gay and lesbian education.
Though I also want to introduce the situation that the conservative group is raising a proposal of referendum to forbid gay and lesbian education, but that's not the issue here so I have to skip that. I hope people who are interested in Taiwan may notice that same-sex marriage is not the only issue about gender equity.

Uh, back to disability rights movement.
As an organization which cares both gender issue and disability issue, we note that even open-minded gender activists may ignore the existence of people with disabilities.
Gender equity education is never designed or applied in the point of view of the disabled.
For example, there are some materials for teaching safe sex, but people seldom think about how a blind person should know before she (or he) masturbate or have sex.

We have a servee who once masturbated in the bathroom of his home, but couldn't clean up since not knowing where his semen reached during ejaculation, and therefore shocked his sister who later used the bathroom.
And another friend bought an artificial vagina in a sex toy store. But he didn't even know he have to erect before insertion.

[[slide page 16]] female servee
People caring about gender equity keep question us: why is there only one female servee during these 5 years after our foundation?
Well, we think the answer is complicated. But the most important one is: how difficult for a female to "confess" she has sexual desire?
We all know about "slut shaming", and those terms to humiliate females by their sexuality -- such as "bitch" and "whore".
It's difficult even for able-bodied females to state their sex experience and preference.
Then it's even more difficult for disabled females to think what she herself wants.

But before sexual activity with other people, disabled females don't even know their body well.
The only female servee we have, told us she has never seen or touched her own vagina.
So we also hosted some conferences and speeches to discuss about such situation of disabled females.

[[slide page 17]] Androcentrism
This is an important issue for us. And I think it's important for those who care about sexual health of disabled people.
Though there are some textures talking about sexual desires of disabled females. To provide sexual service or even sex education to them is barely seen.
I have to admit that, even though there are more and more female members joining us, androcentrism is still not easy to get over.

[[slide page 18]] limitations
Hand Angel provides service to those with servere physical or visual disabilities.
So here comes a frequently asked question: what about others?
The main difficulty for us is that we don't know enough about the situation of other disabilities.
Of course we know that people with other disabilities also don't have enough sexual resources,
but we ourselves do not have enough resources to share, either.
That's why we also hope other people to compose other similar organization.

Meanwhile, there are some people we cannot help because of law.
Adolescents are the ones I myself care about most,
since male teenagers have overwhelming sexual desire, and that would be hell for those with upper limb disability.

However, there are always laws prohibiting youths to have sex in every country.
[[slide page 19]]
In Taiwan, it is legal to have sexual activity after 16. No matter it's intercourse or not.
But even for an organization providing free service like us, the member who communicate with sex volunteer and the servee would be punished as a broker if the servee is younger than 18.
Actually, we do have an applier who mailed us about his desire when he was 15. What we can do is tell him to wait 3 more years.

Unfortunately, being an adult does not mean your right to sex is permitted.
[[slide page 20]]
People with intellectual disability or mental disorder are also infantilized, treated as babies or angels, and considered asexual.
The dilemma is similar to what teenagers have. Their consents are not considered valid.
That is frustrating. The law to protect them from sexual violence also tortures them.

[[slide page 21]] Acrotomophilia and devotees
While talking about disabled people in love or having sex, this is also an issue we should mention.
Some people worry about that devotees are just trying to dominate or take control of the disabled people.
This is similar to MacKinnon's dominance theory and male supremacy.
Devotees are considered to have more power in the relationship, and thus disabled people have a lack of autonomy.

I think that's a stigma, too.
The dominance theory does not deny free love. It focuses on the power issue.
Thus, the problem lies still on the absence of resources disabled people deserve.
Slanders on devotees are based on the prejudice that disabled people are never sexy,
and that denies the possibility for disabled people to have plentiful sexual activity.
The whole society shall support disabled people to have their own autonomy in their relationship.

[[slide page 22]] Difficulties
Usually, people would understand sexual desire of disabled people.
But to support it publicly is another story, especially for the organizations relying on donations.
There are some social workers and parents telling us that they want to do something to help their cases and family,
but it is still an issue which could not be spoken.
It's never been easy for us to talk about sex on the table, but it should be done.
Even for those who don't agree with the idea of sexual service, I do hope you could at least support disabled people to talk about their sex and romance.

[[slide page 23]]
This ends my report. Thank you for listening.
I'm Kong, a sex volunteer of Hand Angel from Taiwan.

お久しぶりです。
仮面女子の猪狩ともかです。

この度は沢山の方々にご心配をお掛けしてしまい、大変申し訳ありません。
私は4/11(水)に強風で倒れた看板の下敷きになってしまうという事故に遭いました。


その日は強風でした。ニュースになるくらい日本の各地でとても強い風が吹いていたそうです。
私はいつものように歩道を歩いていました。

突然強い風が吹き、建物の大きな看板が倒れてくるのがわかりました。
看板があまりに大きすぎてとっさに避けることはできませんでした。

気付けば看板の下敷きになっていました。
出せる精一杯の声を振り絞って「助けて…！」と口にしました。
その時はとにかく苦しく、早く楽になりたいという思いでした。


それからすぐのことだったと思います。
通行人の方が看板を持ち上げてくださって、救急車に運ばれました。

後から聞いたお話では、看板は建物の敷地を飛び越え歩道全体に覆いかぶさっていた状況だったそうです。


それから緊急手術を受け、ICU(集中治療室)に入院しました。
その後、HCU(高度治療室)を経て現在は一般病棟に入院中です。


主に負った怪我は、

・瞼裂傷
・頭部挫創
・骨折(脚、肋骨、胸椎、腰椎)

そして、

・脊髄損傷
その影響で両下肢麻痺。


私は歩くことはもちろん、自分の力で脚を動かすことすらできなくなってしまいました。



治る可能性は極めて低く、
今後、車椅子での生活を余儀なくされました。



体調・怪我は徐々に良くなり、今は自立した車椅子生活を送れるよう毎日リハビリに励んでいます。
退院は今から約3ヶ月後の予定です。



ずっと心配してくださっている皆さんにまずは早く「私、大丈夫だよ！」って言いたくてもどかしい日々が続きました。
でも私自身、状況を把握・受け入れるのに相当な時間が掛かりました。

なんて伝えたらいいんだろう？

私も時間をかけて受け入れたのに、いきなり【脊髄損傷】という事実を文字にして伝えたとき、応援してくださっている皆さんに更に悲しい思いをさせてしまうんじゃないか…。

自分自身が受け入れることに時間がかかったこと、ファンの皆さんに何とお伝えしたらいいか分からなかったこと、そんなことを考えていると、なかなか文章にまとめることができず、ご報告が遅くなってしまいました。
ごめんなさい。


きっと私自身、これから両下肢麻痺と付き合っていく生活について、知らないことがまだ沢山あると思います。


主治医から私への説明は、

「脚の感覚が戻るのには個人差があるので何とも言えません。とにかくリハビリを頑張ってね。」
とのことでした。


脊髄損傷について無知な私は、

「数ヶ月で治るのかな？」
「復帰のステージは笑顔でファンの皆さんに会いたい！」
「また始球式をやらせて頂ける機会があったら次こそノーバウンドで！」
なんて、ベッドの上で考えていました。


私には【脚が動かない】という未来が見えていなかったんです。


手術から数日後、父と姉と話しました。

姉「治ったら一緒にメットライフドーム行こうね！」
父「お父さんは甲子園も一緒に行きたいな。」

私「また始球式があるとしたらそれまでに治るかな！？」
父「車椅子でも投げられるんじゃないかな？」
私「えー、嫌だよ。治して投げる！」
父「…まぁ今はリハビリを頑張ろう。」



精神科医とも色々お話をしました。
突然 脊髄損傷で脚が動かなくなった患者に対しては、主治医と共に精神科医もつくそうです。

きっと家族や事務所、病院の先生方は私がショックを受けないように細心の注意を払ってくれていたと思います。
周りの反応や発言でだんだんと自分が思っているのと違うと感じたのは、HCUに移ってからのことでした。


その日は母と兄が面会時に来ていました。
本当のことを知ったら私は深くショックを受けるかもしれない。
でも覚悟を決めて質問をしました。

私「脚は治らない可能性の方が高いの？」
母「……うん。」
私「私に隠してた？」
兄「今はまず生きていく為に体調を戻さないとだから。」
私「そっか。」
母「でも先生はリハビリを頑張れば奇跡的に脚が動くこともあるって言ってたよ。それを信じて頑張ろう。」



私は歌も踊りも特別上手くはないけど、ステージに立ってライブをして楽しんでくださる皆さんの笑顔を見ると、またそれで自分が笑顔になって…

ファンの皆さんのおかげで“アイドルの猪狩ともか”でいることができる。
そんな時間が大好きです。

だからもちろん
【ステージ復帰】を目指していました。


でもこの事実を知って…

“歌って踊らなくなる時 ＝ 卒業”
としか考えたことがなかった私は、踊れない猪狩ともかを想像することができなくて。

そんな状態の私に需要はあるのか。
いったい何ができるのか。


絶望しました。

事故に遭うまでこの先ずっと普通に歩けると思っていたし、踊れると思っていました。
急に脚が自由に動かせない、自分のものじゃなくなったような感覚になると思ってもいませんでした。


でも不思議と
“仮面女子としての活動を辞める”
という考えに至ったことは1度もありませんでした。


今後どうしたいか考えたときに
“車椅子の猪狩ともか”としての活動を
自然と想像している自分がいました。

そう思わせてくれたのは
支えてくれる周りの全ての人でした。


「車椅子に乗っていたって人を幸せにしたり喜ばせたり、誰かの希望になることは出来るよ。」
「ともちゃんは人を楽しませる、幸せにすることのできる子だから、どんな形であってもそれを続けてくれたら嬉しい。」

という家族の言葉。


「車椅子に乗って色んな場所行こうね！いっぱい遊ぼう！おばあちゃんになっても！！」

という友達からの言葉。


「その明るさで周りのリハビリ頑張っている皆さんのことも明るくしてください。みんなの光になってください。」

という先生の言葉。


「スタッフ全員、猪狩ともかと共にずっと活動していくって気持ちでいるよ。猪狩のやりたいことを叶えたいから何でも言ってね。」

という事務所からの言葉。


「どれだけ時間がかかっても待ってるから。いつでも戻ってこれるようにライブ盛り上げてステージ守るからね！」

というメンバーからの言葉。


そしてファンの皆さん。

劇場で黄色サイリウムや横断幕を掲げてくれて、回復祈願をしてくれたこと。

心を込めて千羽鶴(1209羽)を折ってくれたこと。
皆さんが一羽一羽心を込めて折ってくださったのと同じように、私もベッドの上で一羽一羽数えました。

#いがともちゃんがんばれ
という応援ツイートも見れる限り読ませて頂きました。

きっとハッシュタグがついていなくても心配や応援してくださる声が、たくさんあったと思います。
お手紙もたくさん受け取りました。


皆さんの温かさに何度も救われました。
夜にひとりで不安になったとき、皆さんの言葉が本当に救いでした。

皆さんの気持ちは確実に私に届いています。
心からありがとうございます。



私が大切な節目によく言う言葉、

【希望の光になりたい。】

こうなってしまった今もこの気持ちは変わりません。



脚が動かなくなっても、車椅子に乗りながらやりたいことはたくさんあります。

仮面女子の曲を作詞したいです。

ラジオや講演、司会など、お話する仕事をしたいです。

生きている限り埼玉西武ライオンズの応援をし続けていきたい、野球のお仕事をしたいです。

今回の事故を自分自身のために残すため、手記を本にしたいです。


挙げればキリがありません。
今までとは方向性は変わるけど、何かを発信していきたいという気持ちは何ひとつ変わりません。


そして最終的にはやっぱり、これは“神様の存在”とか“奇跡”という言葉になってしまいますが、脚が元通り動くようになって【アイドルとしてステージで踊りたい】です。

幸せなことに、待ってくれている人たちがたくさんいます。
このことが私の最大の励みになっています。

時間はかかるかもしれません。
元通りは無理かもしれません。

でも必ず笑顔で「久しぶり！」って元気な姿で皆さんに会いたいです。



事故があったあの日、まさか自分がこんな目に合うとは思っていなかったです。
家族も友達も、事務所のスタッフも、メンバーも、ファンの皆さんも、誰も思っていなかったでしょう。

あの日、たまたまあの時間に歩道を歩き、たまたま私が大きな看板の前を差し掛かったときに特別強い風が吹き、看板の下敷きになりました。

もし、看板の前に到着する前に、靴ヒモがほどけて直していたり、誰かから電話が鳴って歩みを止めてお話したり、喉が乾いて自動販売機で飲み物を買ったり、わずか数秒でも手前で何かをしていたら私は事故には遭っていませんでした。

もし、なんてことはないのは分かっているけれど、色んな偶然が重なって私の両脚は動かなくなってしまいました。


でも、命が助かりました。
目撃者のお話によると現場は酷い状況で、命が助かっただけでも有難い状況だったそうです。



私は生きています。



このことだけは何にも代えることのできない神様からのプレゼントだと思っています。
その分試練も与えられたけど、きっと越えられない試練は与えないはず。


よく、ドラマや映画で「明日何があるか分からない、今を大切にしよう。」という言葉を聞きます。
今までその言葉を大切にしてきたつもりではあったけど、改めて本当にその通りだと思います。


だからこれからどんなことがあっても、
向日葵のように上を向いて楽しくて幸せな人生を歩んでいく。
そして毎日を丁寧に大切に生きていきたい。


私は前を向いています。
もう心配しないでね。

これからも猪狩ともかを見守ってください。
そして一緒に歩んでいければ嬉しいです。

この先もずっと、よろしくお願いします。
It's been a long time.
It's also a masked girl igari.

I'm very sorry for worrying about so many people this time.
I was in an accident on 4/11 (Wed) that it was going to be the bottom of the sign that fell down with a strong wind.


It was a strong wind that day. It seems that there was a very strong wind in various places in Japan in the news.
I was walking on the sidewalk as usual.

I see that suddenly the strong wind blows, and the big sign of the building is falling down.
The sign was too big, so I couldn't avoid it quickly.

It was on the bottom of the restorative sign.
I said, " help me... with the best voice I can get.
At that time it was painful and I wanted to make it easier.


And I think it was right away.
A passerby was transported to an ambulance to lift up the sign.

From later on, it seems that the sign was covered in the whole sidewalk of the building.


Then I got an emergency surgery and I was hospitalized for ICU (Intensive Care room).
After that, I'm currently hospitalized in the general ward after the hcu (Advanced Treatment room).


The injury of the Lord is the one who is the one

Eyelid laceration
The head of the head
Fracture (legs, ribs, thoracic spine, lumbar vertebrae)

And then

Spinal damage
Due to the influence, both lower limb paralysis.


I couldn't even move my legs with my own power to walk.



The possibility of being cured is extremely low,
In the future, I have been forced to live in a wheelchair.



Health injuries gradually get better, and now I'm encouraging rehab to send an independent wheelchair life.
Discharge is about 3 months from now.



To all of you who have been worried about me, I wanted to say " I'm okay!" the days have continued.
But myself, it took a lot of time to figure out the situation.

What should I tell you?

I also accepted it in time, but when I told the fact that it was suddenly [spinal damage.... I'm going to make you feel even more sad....

I didn't know what to say to all my fans that I had time to accept it, and when I thought about it, I couldn't put it together in the writing, and I was late to report it. Yes.
I'm sorry.


I'm sure there's still a lot of things I don't know about the life that I'm going to get together with my lower limb paralysis.


My Doctor's explanation of me,

" I can't say it because there is individual difference in the sense of legs to return. Good luck with your rehab anyway."
That's what I was talking about.


I'm ignorant about spinal damage,

" I wonder if it will heal in a few months?"
" the stage of return is a smile and I miss you all my fans!"
" if you have a chance to be able to do the first pitch again, next is the no bound!"
What a thought on the bed.


I didn't see the future that [legs don't move]


A few days after the surgery, I talked to my father and sister.

Sister: " Let's go metlife dome together when it's healed!"
Father: " Dad wants to go with koshien too."

Me: " if there is another pitch ceremony, will it be cured by then!?"
Father: " I wonder if I can throw a wheelchair?"
Me: " eh, I hate it. Heal and throw!"
Father "... well now let's do our rehab."



I talked about a lot of things with psychiatrist.
It seems that there will also be a psychiatrist with a doctor for a patient who has suddenly lost his legs with spinal damage.

I bet the family, office, and hospital teachers paid close attention to me not to be shocked.
It's been a long time since I moved to hcu that I felt different from what I think about the reactions and remarks around me.


My mother and brother came to see me on that day.
I may be deeply shocked if I know the truth.
But I was prepared and asked a question.

Me: " legs are more likely not to be cured?"
Mother "...... yeah."
Me: " I hid it?"
Brother: " now I have to get back to life."
Me: " oh yeah."
Mother: " but the teacher said that if you go to rehab, you can miraculously move your legs. Let's do our best to believe it."



I don't even sing and dance special, but when I see everyone's smile that I'm going to stand on stage and enjoy it, I'm going to have a smile again...

Thanks to all the fans, I can be "idol igari"
I love time like that.

So of course
I was aiming for [stage return]


But know this fact...

"when you sing and don't dance = Graduation"
I've only thought about it, and I can't even imagine igari who can't dance.

Is there a demand for me in such a state?
What the hell can I do?


I'm desperate.

I thought I was going to be able to walk in a normal way until I was in an accident, and I thought I'd dance.
I can't move my legs freely, I never thought I'd feel like my own.


But wonder
"quitting activities as a masked girl"
I've never been to the idea of 1 degrees.


When you think about what to do in the future
Activities as "Wheelchair Igari"
I had myself that I imagine nature.

That made me think so
It was all the people around you who supported me.


" when you're in a wheelchair, you can make people happy or happy, and you can be someone's hope."
" I would be happy if you continue to do it in any form, because you are a child who can make you happy and happy."

The Word of the family.


" Let's go in a wheelchair and go all kinds of places! Let's play a lot! Even when I become an grandma!!"

A word from a friend.


" please light up all of you who are working hard on the rehabilitation around you with its brightness. Be the light of everyone."

The Word of the teacher.


" I feel like I'm going to work all the time with the whole staff, igari. Say anything you want igari to do."

Words from the office.


" I'm waiting for how long it takes. I'll make a live show and protect the stage so I can come back anytime!"

A word from a member.


And all the fans.

What a prayer and prayer for holding yellow thanos and banner at the theater.

It's been a long time since I've been in the middle of a paper cranes.
Just as you all broke with one feather, I also counted one feather on the bed.

#いがともちゃんがんばれ
I was able to read it as long as I can see the cheering tweet.

I think there was a lot of voices that were worried and cheering on me even if I didn't have a hashtag.
I received a lot of letters.


I've been saved by your warmth many times.
When I was anxious at night, everyone's words were truly saved.

Everyone's feelings are definitely delivered to me.
Thank you very much from the heart.



Words that I often say to a milestone that is important,

[I want to be the light of hope.]

This feeling doesn't change even now.



There's a lot of things I want to do while riding a wheelchair even if my legs aren't moving.

I'd like to write a song of a masked girl.

I want to do a job to talk about radio, lecture, emcee, etc.

I want to keep supporting saitama seibu lions as long as I live, I want to do a baseball job.

I want to book a note to leave this accident for myself.


There is no got.
The direction is changing until now, but the feeling that I want to send something is not changed.


And in the end, this is the word " God's presence " and " miracle but the legs are moving back, and I want to dance on stage as an idol.

Happiness, there are a lot of people who are waiting for you.
This is my biggest encouragement.

It may take some time.
You may not be able to get back to it.

But I'm sure to smile, " it's been a while!" I want to see you all in a good way.



That day when there was an accident, I didn't think I'd ever see this.
No family, no friends, no office staff, no members, no fans, no one would have thought.

On that day, I happened to walk on the sidewalk at that time, and it happened to be a special strong wind when I was in front of the big sign, and it turned out to be a sign of the sign.

If the shoe pimp is untied and fixed before I arrive before the sign, someone calls me to stop walking and talk, thirsty and buy drinks on vending machines, just a few seconds I wasn't in an accident if I was doing something in front of me.

I know it's not a thing, but there's a lot of coincidences, and my legs aren't moving.


But my life was helpful.
According to the witnesses, the site was a terrible situation, and it seems that it was a good situation to be able to save life.



I'm alive.



I think this is a present from God who can't replace anything.
I was given a test, but I'm sure I won't give you a test that can't be crossed.


I often hear the word " I don't know what tomorrow is tomorrow, I will take care of it."
I was going to take care of the word until now, but I think it's really true.


So no matter what it is from now on,
Looking up like a sunflower and walking in a fun and happy life.
And I want to live every day carefully and cherish.


I'm looking forward.
Don't worry about it anymore.

From now on, please watch over igari too.
And I would be happy if I could walk with you.

Thank you very much for your continued support.Translated

Supta Kumasana - self adjustment ;)

If you love your teacher then please learn this self adjustment, because assisting students to get into Supta Kurmasana is, I would say, the worst thing for a teachers back. Bending over and lifting legs is hard manual labour and is one of the reasons why teachers get back pain.
From the students point of view this is also a good way to get into the posture when no one is around to help, and reduces the chance of injury when you do get adjusted, because you've done most of the work yourself. Limb length is a consideration here - the longer the limbs the easier it is. In any case, an important key is to get the calf muscles out of the way and get the legs as high up on the shoulders as possible.